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When I was younger, I welcomed the idea that as human beings it is our fate to couple up, get married and have children. I thought it was normal for me to think that our sole-purpose is indeed to serve God by way of non-stop praying, getting married and procreating. As I got older and more exposed to the evil ways of the west (and by this I mean the frowned upon atheistic western "logics" and "common sense") I started to think differently.
The first thing that changed was my perception of God. I used to think God was this really grumpy old guy who just loves to smite people and take his wrath upon us, eerily leering from above, waiting for us to do something wrong and then when you think you are safe, “WHAM!” He smites us to a thousand pieces. When he is feeling lazy, he would send down his angels to make a list of all the things we do wrong then keep it in his grudge cabinet so that when we die he will happily drown us in a pool of boiling hot lava-like liquid for as long as he likes or until he has something better to do or new people to torture.
Now, I strongly feel that if there really is a God (I say "IF" because no one really knows, it's all down to personal faith) he would most likely be a deity-like entity who is loving, understanding and kind, who emanates eternal peace and is made up of all things good, like sugar and spice.
People who say things like "That tsunami is a warning/curse from God" or, "The heretics who were murdered were asking for it, if those people didn't take their lives, God would've done the job himself sooner or later" irritate the hell out of me. I know they have a right to their opinions, they do and I am fine with that don't get me wrong, but they are just irritatingly ignorant. Yet there is nothing I can do to change the way they think as I used to be one of these people and I understand their way of thinking although I surely do not condone it. Nobody changed my way of thinking, it just happened gradually on its own through natural selection, personal experiences, education, social interaction and a myriad of other factors that may or may not have the same effect on other people on a similar boat.
Thank goodness I have become this common-sense worshiping, moral loving, reasoning addicted infidel that I am today. I don't mind not going to "heaven" as from what I was told heaven is going to be nothing but a huge, non-stop orgy full of men drinking wine from the rivers and having sex with virgin angels anyway. It's not like I haven't been in one before and if only the men are going to have fun in this so-called heavenly orgy, I wouldn't want to be one sitting there watching all the fun, how boring would that be, right?
But, I digress.
The same thing happened with my idea of motherhood. While I know that it is indeed a natural part of life and I don’t oppose of it, I don't think it's for everyone. My friends told me that I will hear my biological clock ticking and I will know when it's time. Well, I am almost 36 and either my biological clock needs a new battery or it just isn't happening for me.
I actually don't mind not having kids. Nope, let me rephrase that, I actually don't want any kids.
*Gasps* "How can she say that? It’s blasphemy!!” some people may think.
Well a few years ago, I feel guilty whenever I even think about this and I certainly never say it out loud. Whenever people ask me, "So Rima, when will you have a baby?" or “Don’t you want to hear the pitter-patter of ‘tiny feet in your house??” I answer, "Not now, maybe in a few years." (Although I constantly have the urge to answer the second question with, “If I want to hear the pitter-patter of tiny feet in my house I’d buy a Chihuahua and have it wear small dog boots around the house. Problem solved”)
But who am I kidding? I didn't want a baby then, and I sure as hell don't want one now.
Now I have become more assertive in my life decisions and I no longer feel guilty telling people that, “Kids are just not for me.” because “I think my life is perfect the way it is.”
The thing is, I know parents who don’t really want children but were forced into having them by society and their families. I have seen what that does to their children and it’s not pretty. I am fulfilled by my life, I have my routines, my job, my side job, my hobbies, my friends and my family. I am content with my life and I think I'm blessed with so many good things in life that there is nothing more I could possibly want. So why ruin a good thing?
I don’t want to have kids just for the sake of having them, “cos everybody else has them.” As if kids are a pair of Gucci loafers or a Plasma TV. No, if I ever have kids it will be because I really, and I mean REALLY want them.
If I give in to the pressure and norms of the society, I could end up resenting my kids and feel like I have given up many things I enjoy to have them. I know this sounds selfish, but it is more selfish to have kids so that people will accept you and think you are “normal”. Let me tell you something, there is nothing normal about having unwanted kids because it will screw up that kid and scar them emotionally for life, not to mention turning you into an asshole.
Now I should know, I was one of these kids. And again I tell you, it’s not pretty for both the parties involved as it is sad and unfair for an adult to have to do something they don’t really want but feel like they “must" do while it’s especially unjust and unfair for a child to be born to parents who don’t really want them.
So the next time I hear somebody asking me that dreadful question again or making a snide remark about who will take care of me in my old age if I don’t have kids, that is when I will say “If I ever decide to have kids, I will do so because I really want to. And I will love that child and educate them so that they have free will, an open mind and a loving heart. Not so that I have a guaranteed spot in a homey retirement home.” I won't even care if a person insinuates that women who never bear children are not real women. Yes, there are people like that out there, total bitches.
Because at the end of the day, having children (or not) is your personal choice and nobody should be able to pressure you into doing it or talk you out of it when you want to do so. It's your right, your prerogative and no one else. period.
Anonim said:
I agree with you Rima on the free choice, but as a woman you have the time limit. After menopause you couldn’t decide to have children anymore.
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Anonim said:
I heard from a Dr. that a couple in their early 50s got their first child after 20+ or so years of marriage. Can you fUc&ing believe it ? True story…so no worries, still plenty of fUc&ing time if you happen to decide otherwise later. Cheers..sweetie pie.
SukaSuka
Anonim said:
You must’ve been pressured by the religious adherents (read: robots) of social norm to bring out such a great common sense viewpoint. I don’t see any selfishness in your opinion, I see a responsible person inside you and that’s very respectable. If someone want to have children, be responsible. Succumbing to social pressure without really wanting the responsibility of raising a good kid, is just being hypocritical, and it won’t be good for those involved, also may not be good for the society if the kid turn out to be social burden caused by lack of love and care. The motivation to incarnate a new soul into this physical universe must come from heart of love, and social pressure is not love but tyranny. Most people just wanna be accepted by society, therefore relented their personal power, their personal choice to this powerful social pressure and become worshippers of this false god. Those who have common sense viewpoint like you are quite rare. I think we outcast of social norm, should form a group together as a support system to support those weaker outcasts not to be easily bullied into submission by those zombies in the social norm/pressure clothing.
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Anonim said:
guest #1 and 2: Thanks a lot for the support and info, so far I still have no desire to have kids whatsoever but it’s nice to know there are options should I suddenly long for one later on in life. Gues #3: that is a nice idea, forming a group together to support one another. I’m in. 🙂
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Anonim said:
poor woman, huh ?
SukaSuka
Anonim said:
Who is stupid & egoist than ?
SukaSuka
Anonim said:
The idea of support system is necessary part of being a free thinker. Even free thinker can’t go alone in this world. Perhaps the first simple supporting act that we all can do is showing agreement and appreciation to an opinion that’s fair and empowering choice like yours. We know how sometimes, snide remarks could bring bad mood if unawared. Ideally, the support system expected could go as far as caring each others while sick or taking care of older one without children. How we go there, perhaps it’ll be built through time as more and more of us see this as part of necessity to build a “home” for free thinkers. Also, since we’ve thought about it, others may have already thought about it too, so maybe there’s support system already out there. We could share the info with each others if any knows one. A blessing is sent to you, Rima (not religious god-based one, but a heartfelt blessing wishing you all the best).
SukaSuka
Anonim said:
Even some animals, she will fight until die to protect her egg, to protect her baby.
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Anonim said:
2 bahkan 4 jempol untuk tulisannya!
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